i know that keeping baby doesnt equal to solving my marriage problems. but i still feel baby should not be deprived of a complete family. god knows what will happen to us in future...but for now, baby will definitely stay. dont be so cruel so as to ask if im keeping.. i will, no matter what it takes. baby is innocent. it just came in time...whether to salvage my marriage or not, it doesnt matter. and yes, right now im carrying on with the wedding cos of baby. but yes too, i still do love him. i just hope our problems can be solved...... we have really been safe for the past one week...for baby's sake too i think. lets just hope baby is here to save my situation. hehe..
i think baby is making me feel hungry all the time.. but my morning sickness has been quite bad and is affecting my appetite. morning shifts make me especially hungry cos staff cafeteria's food sucks..so i dont take breakfast or lunch. yet when i get home, i cant eat much...i just wanna puke all the time. i havent even officially told my company yet. working gives me fear of hurting baby yet i still want to work. i dont want to be posted to some boring place where time doesnt pass. i shall see how when i get back to work tomorrow... baby is already 6 weeks and growing.. i feel happy. =)
